O.K. Here I go. I don’t know how this is going to turn out, I only know I need to do it. I’ve lost my muchness. I have been in some very strange and unfamiliar places these past couple of years. Oftentimes I really did feel like Alice falling through the rabbit hole..unable to stop myself or get myself back to the familiar. Yet I know when one has returned from this kind of journey, the familiar is not the same. It has been somewhat comforting to realize I’ve been through this twice before, this internal seismic shift. And each time what followed was a huge change in perception.Since I am still feeling tremulous I am creating this blog to motivate and inspire myself.
My birthday is one month from tomorrow. Within this month I am going to take my driver’s test, shoot a video ( Miss Maxwell Presents: Drinks with Mr. Charles) and post it, train for a 5K and lose the extra 7 lbs. that I’ve been carrying around for a year. May not sound like much but, trust me it is. I HAVE had some muchier moments this year. I took a documentary filmmaking class which required me to get through some HUGE academic and technlogical phobias..I’m talking anxiety attacks. I also participated in a head shaving event; raising $5,400 for children’s cancer research. That’s been great, but I want to live a muchier life..daily.
That’s the thing, I HAD the muchness. I pushed through my boundaries, I manifested so many of my dreams..I HAD it, chutzpah, courage, mojo…but I missplaced it. So everyday I am going to live a little muchier. Push myself to DO. Starting NOW!